The Days get quicker
As i see you from a distance
looking for the signs
but in reality
you need to search for
the sign of
as i stand here near her
knowing the enemy of mine
is cradling your arms
into his own arms filled with thorns
like a dangerous rose
a withering molten,
rose of darkness
starvation fills my head
depression fills my heart
anger fills my body
and love remains in my soul.
Had a great talk with Lady Red today. she went to see a movie with friends and her ex bastard. was alittle worried when she told me she had two drinks. not because of getting drunk, but OTHER reasons i can't mention. was relieved when she called afterwards. talked about music most of the time. of course she tried not to bring up about HIM. while i didn't mind, i feel like even though i respect her cause it would kill the mood, part of me feels like reminding her how much of a douche he is, and why it needs to end with him. i have to be patient i guess. i love her enough to be.
in any other case, my dad came over. had a good talk with him. infortunatly, my mom was asleep. SHE HAD A GOOD OPPORTUNITY FOR THEM TO SIT DOWN AND TALK!
sheesh, i feel bad my future girlfriend Lady Red will have to meet them eventually.
i was supposed to see Lady Red in Parma, OH (her hometown) during thanksgiving, but several complications are awry why it may not happen:
1.) her schedule (she may have plans during my visit which could effect us meeting.)
2.) her hometown (according to my relatives, Parma is a prejudice town, even though Lady Red told me it's now a Black Dominated town now.)
3.) Money. (i am so short of money because of giving money to help my parents i can't save enough to pay for my trip. :( )
in any case, unless i can get the money before the holidays, i guess i will have to hold out for two months with phone texts conversations, skypes, and facebook chats with her. i can only hope i can hold on as well as she can not resist the false charms of the Asshole.
it so much i can do for now. i love her with all my heart.
signing out for now.